Oh my god!!! I cannot believe that it has been more than a year since my last blog. However, having been idle here in Manila, I thought it was time to catch up with some old things, including programming and blogging. It has been a roller coaster ride during the past year, with priorities changing ever so often. Old passions, habits and hobbies taking a backseat and new interests, and ideas making a run to the post. A cursory glance at a few other bloggers from my friends circle indicated a similar kind of path being treaded by all and I started feeling more in sync with the happenings around. Maybe I m not the only one in this world undergoing the changes. I was singing "Jimmy quit, Jody got married". It was so reminisent of the old Bryan Adams number.
The year had also translated into trying out things that I had always be passionate about. Programming and travelling. I was able to travel a lots during this time while also trying my hand on programming with PERL, Dot Net and SAP. Taking on newer and higher challenges has been the order of the year, I have also realised that priorities do change for everyone as time goes on and we need to keep a constant eye to understand the need for such a change.
Sitting alone in my Hotel room and looking out of the window, felling homesick and al, I would have imagined that this is the best possible way to deflect the thought of loneliness and blogging, as always tried to soothe the pains. I have been away from home, away from my parents and sister, but never have I felt so lonely and desperate. While an onsite opportunity has never been of great interest to me, this opportunity came out of the blue and when I least expected it. While I would not say that I m crying out to get back home, it does affect your psyche and I ve understood the real impact of having your own people, in times when you are really low and would want a shoulder to lean. Learning to cope with challenges while not having the best of support from the near and dear ones is certainly a great experience the you can brag about, in future years. The first few days on the trip, were "from Hell" to say the least. However, you tend to get used to the situation and slowly adapt. I would be lying if I say that I m not counting the days that I would be here. It has been a new, exciting experience in an alien country, but there is no other place, closer home.. home sweet home. I m certainly missing the hustle and bustle of Bangalore, the constant daylong quarrels with my sister on holidays, endless discussions with my close pals on future career paths and plans and the arguments with my work mates.
Every obstacle in life gives more challenges and more opportunites to prove to yourself that there is nothing greater than human ability. After all we are the most successful of all species. Saying all this to myself, I have been trying to divert my attention to the things that I would do once I return to my home in India. Every single day that you feel that you certainly do not deserve this treatment from life, you stumble across events that make you feel that you are better off than a lot others, like a sentimental forward mail from a friend, a less fortunate kid on the road or something else that would crumple your heart.
"I always complained about not having proper shoes, until I saw someone wiith no feet".
The spur of the moment makes you feel helpless and desperate, but looking at that situation and seeing others around you, you certainly feel a lot more gifted and previleged. While I spend one more day in this distant land, waiting for the sunrise to be faster, I can only hope for better days ahead. How I wish the earth rotated a lot faster than 1666 km/hr. Travelling is going to take my thoughts of homesickness away from me for some time and I hope God and Mother Earth would fulfil my prayers for faster rotation and more frequent Sunrises.